Happy Birthday everyone!!!

Rainbow Sun Francks: December 3, 1979
Holly Marie Combs: December 3, 1973
Amy Acker: December 5, 1976
Noel Clarke: December 6, 1975
Torri Higginson: December 6, 1966
Ben Browder: December 11, 1962
Michael Shanks: December 15, 1970
Alyssa Milano: December 19, 1972
Jennifer Beals: December 19, 1963
Katherine Moennig: December 29, 1976
Eliza Dushku: December 30, 1980


05: atlantisflygirl - Kelly
06: xrachiebabyx - Rach.
07: toyangl - toyangl
07: sadistic_kitten - sadistic_kitten
07: orlandogirl - ~*Girl*~
07: naika7 - naika7
09: blackmarquise - blackmarquise
12: nikoree - ミ★nikore.☆彡
15: larkawolfgirl - larkawolfgirl
15: cable_addict - Cable_Addict
17: elen_ancalima - The Hobbit
22: trinity_sin - Lastamë, Ailinu
23: therg - Merry
24: edincoat - homicidal porn merchant
25: cutecrazyice - cutecrazyice
28: kaibaonfire - Sarah
30: haliation - unconsolable daughter
31: marionetteblue3 - marionetteblue3

Happy November Birthdays!!!

Corin Nemec: November 6, 1971
Teryl Rothery: November 9, 1965
Reece Thompson: November 22, 1988
Janina Gavankar November 29, 1980

07: strangefrontier - I'm yelling at a bee!
11: euphonious_13 - in your name i find meaning
12: eridanie - Leah
20: bluevolvic - bluevolvic (Paula)
26: ankareeda - Andy
26: timespirt - timespirt

So I'm back from Yaoi-Con. I only stayed the first and second day. Next time I'm staying the whole time. So I was in awe of everything. First driving to San Francisco, I haven't been there since elementary school. And then to San Mateo, I've never been there. The only bummer about the trip was we stayed at a different motel then where the con was and we had to walk there, so I'm sore, lol.

I got lots of stuff, the only art I recognized was from siguredo, jiuge, and heise on deviantART. Here's their online shop: X-Seven There was a couple other deviants there, none I had recognized. Someone recognized my deviant name Before-I-Sleep, I was happy. And seeing a mangaka for the first time was awesome, Kano Miyamoto aka Miyamoto-sensei is so kawaii!

I bought three of her most recent manga, a good deal too. Three for $10. Lots of cosplay, next time I'm going to also. My faves were a Lelouch (Code Geass) and a Zero (Vampire Knight). And this panel on how to write better fanfiction, was funny, the lady gave us penis erasers and penis candy and made us grope ourselves. And the Gundam: Gay Since 1979 was a must! Watched some yaoi while there too.

Bought some art, manga, and 2 doujinshi. A NaruSasu one and a OroJira one. All the Supernatural ones were sold out, bah! Then on the way back we stopped in Japan Town. Loved it! Bought me some stationary. I really wanted to buy this Sailor Moon collection because it's the cheapest I've seen it, around $80, but alas I had not enough money. Then we stopped at the Japan Market, bought me a big thing of chocolate pocky, strawberry ramune, and a milk tea.

Now my sleep schedule is screwed up, but I have the next three days off from work. I can't wait to go to another con, I think I'll try for Yuri-con next, but that's in New Jersey so I'd better save.

List of items bought.

Poster well I couldn't find a good picture of it, but in this picture it's the picture with the 4 guys on it, it's hidden though, with the red background, its drawn by heise.
Wincest Print by Ponderosa.
Angel + Demon 2007 and Nightengale by Kiriko Moth.
RG Veda Volume 1
FAKE Volume 4
FAKE Volume 5
Our Everlasting Volume 1
Our Everlasting Volume 2
Alone In My King's Harem
Same Cell Organism
Two of Hearts
Lovers and Souls
Say Please

Well, I'll be gone till Monday. Going to my first convention ever!! Yaoi-con, over in San Mateo. So I'll see you guys soon.

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Next Fanmix?

So this lady I work with, her son lives in SoCal and he works at this power plant which apparently they should episodes of Bones, CSI Miami and the new Knight Rider. But I was squee about the Bones, she said that they provide everyone with lunch and her son has gotten his picture taken with David Boreanez and has said that he's really cool and laid back. Lucky man!!!

And after seeing the 4th season finale, I'm even more in love with Lance Sweets (John Francis Daley) and his band Gormagon (Dayplayer). I managed to download the song they sang from the episode if anyone wants it.

Dayplayer - Neverending Summer

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Fave anime genre?

Fave anime genre continued?

Happy Birthday!!!

04: __ritsuka - ☆ サツ / 小 ☆
04: _touched - just a girl
08: innogen - Innogen
11: abbyromana - abbyromana
11: johnsheppardluv - johnsheppardluv
14: mistygemmy - mistygemmy
17: wannatee_1984 - lovesqueezing since 2001
18: mercedeslove - Mercedeslove
20: lil_lost_kitten - Reno-ina, Princess Subtext.
22: ryo_hakkai - Ryo
24: techno4tomcats - Kimbotron
26: saowee - saowee
26: obsessed1o1 - obsessed1o1
30: nessaja82 - Nessa
31: johnliz4ever - Torri
31: darkscarab - Jessie

Christian Coulson: October 3, 1978
Erin Daniels: October 9, 1973
Claudia Black: October 11, 1972
Michelle Trachtenberg: October 11, 1985
Christopher Judge: October 13, 1964

So I've finally gotten around to watching Lost, a co-worker let me borrow the first season. And now I have a new shipping. Sawyer/Kate and I'm sure later on I'm going to like Jack/Juliet but from what I've read it's one of those shipping's where later its going to to be Jack/Kate and Sawyer/Juliet and I'm not really big on those two.

In other words. I may be moving soon, possibly next month. A couples friends of mine want me to move with them to Santa Rosa. Which is exactly what I wanted, someone I now who likes anime to be my roommates. We'll see how things go this month. Plus there's this guy at work that's new and he's interested in me, he's a huge Naruto fan, even has a Kunai Knife tattooed on his arm. So maybe I'll give him a shot. Any who, nothing more that's new. I'm loving the new Bones episodes and Heroes is looking interesting.

Okay, so I didn't write down some of my pen pals addresses and I've got like 2 letters and the people who sent them didn't put their address on them. So now I can't write back, I hate when that happens!

So, my best friend ended up leading me on and using me. Now I'm being accused of harassing him when it's the other way around and now I'm afraid he's going to try and get me fired. I feel used, abandoned, alone, emotionally violated, and confused. I really really miss him. I should hate him. Even if that wasn't his intention that's how it ended up. How could you do this to me? I should hate him but I can't, I love him so much. And I'm suffering. Because I'm not getting what my heart wants I feel so alone. I feel damaged. Embarrassed that I let someone do this to me. Why am I the one suffering and not him? I don't care if he never returns my feelings, I just want my best friend back.

And on top of all of this, I'm surrounded by a bunch of alcoholic pill popping pot smoking lunatics. And I don't have a car or enough money to move away. I just want to leave this infected town and never come back. Because when I go to work, all I ever see is him. The place I met him. And I don't want to be there. And I don't want to come home either. When I'm alone all I can think about is him and I don't want to think about him, never. And he was the one that use to tell me everything would be okay when things at home were like this.

I am so exhausted from trying to not break down, to stay strong. And I'm losing. And everyone keeps disappointing me.

Happy birthday everyone!!!

Rose McGowan: September 5, 1973
Cliff Simon: September 7, 1962
Michelle Stafford: September 14, 1965
Tom Felton: September 22, 1987
Billie Piper: Septermber 22, 1982

03: rozzietheaussie - rozzietheaussie
04: muldy - Fi
09: brokengem - Hero of the dawn, Healer of worlds
10: lmichelle599 - Lisa Michelle
12: airbear23 - Erin
17: claudiasharon
18: buggy_542 - Buggy
19: drop_down_dead - yami no kage
23: mercscilla - Mercy
26: riekchen - Rieke
28: 0xnatashax0 - Natasha
29: madamemauvais - Megan Joyce
30: martoufmarty - Stephanie

Is it just me or does it happen to everyone? When something bad happens, everything bad happens. Like when it rains it pours. So my car broke down awhile ago, took it to the mechanic and he says it needs a new engine. So now I have to salvage it. And now I'll have to rely on others for rides to work until I have enough money saved up to get a new car. *sigh* And my best friend isn't even around to help me. Or is he even my friend anymore, I don't know, he messes with my head. Either way, I'm all alone, I have to deal with everything by myself. And I'm really trying hard to not give in to the sadness that I know is just waiting to break free.

Happy August Birthdays!!!

Jason Momoa: August 1, 1979
Don S. Davis: August 4, 1942
Andy Hallett: August 4, 1975
James Lafazanos: August 9, 1976
Colin Cunningham: August 20, 1966
James Marsters: August 20, 1962
Rupert Grint: August 24, 1988
Rachel Shelley: August 25, 1969
J. August Richards: August 28, 1973
Amanda Tapping: August 28, 1965

01: broadwaystar12 - ☆ Joebear ☆
02: kintagi - kintagi
05: papilotta_chan - papilotta_chan
05: hinoai - Hi-chan (火ちゃん)
05: bippy24 - bippy24
06: karalea - a vindictive little bitch, truth be told. (kara)
11: valerie_haru - valerie_haru
22: singloom - Singloom
28: mystic_aleisha - mystic_aleisha
31: jenniferjensen - jennifer jensen

Yay, I'm 21 today!!!

I sit here and wonder
How could I let this happen?
Let myself believe all the lies you ever told me
So I am empty again
With this hole inside of me
Without a purpose
Numb
Crying, shouting, "God, how can this be?"
How'd I let my heart be deceived?
I am defeated and beaten
Rather I am mourning the death of you
The person I fell in love with died a long time ago
And you are just the ghost of who you use to be
I will not let you use me, abuse me, no longer
I have to find new meaning, new purpose
My light died with you
You made me believe in myself
Wherein I came to not believe in you
Because fairytales don't exist
Because of you
I am alone....again.